it's like a speeding bullet.... i didnt even get the chance to make a u-turn or whatsoever. i have to think straight. i have to clear my mind up. im starting to get lost again. i need God's company. my oh my, why is this happening again? i wish i could be with my mom's tender loving arms. i must decide what's next. i must think it over a million times. AAAAAAAAH!

so much for being impulsive and stubborn.... and childish.

should i give him up.. or not?